I did it again. It feels better this time, I convince myself. I feel better. I can’t expect more. And I. Not waving but drowning. That is my call. First kiss becomes last.In a continuous matter. No compromise. We are cloned to each other like sailors in a storm. No mercy no miracles.
Worlds of sea pearls. Not locked out by doors. Love. No keys. No past, no future. Present.
Don’t leave. It’s everything I need. Don’t leave. You don’t know, what I am looking for. Angel.
There was a beginning. It was leafs on empty branches. Safe me. Wind. Fall. The colors of tomorrow. The Hospital is just around the corner.
Stop the lying. Stop the lying. Back before I was leaving. Season changing. The sea is still rough. It’s rough.
Blue marks on my neck, in my throat. Who cares. The only leftovers from the time together. Spending time.
Waste. Everyday is grey. Sail away.
Success. I sleep like swollen opium.
This was not a goodbye.